Where is the connection? ...through Christ.

I have lost my connection... my connection with pure worship. I had a heart to lead, to play worship music without trying to be someone special. I felt as if God gave me a gift that I have now taken for granted. A gift I rather not use if I am to abuse it. For what good is my guitar if I am to use it improperly? If I am to be selfish and want personal gain, than the guitar means nothing to me. Even if, it was a gift from my father. If I can not play with a pure heart it is worthless to me and my father, I want only to please the Father, and I can not do so if my heart is full of junk. So, I will go to the Father and ask for Him to help me clean it up. And then once ready, only then will I play/lead again.